Hi, there, Dearhearts,
Context: Writing is always there for me—an open invitation. So, when I find myself doubting the advisability of accepting the offer (specifically, when speaking to deeper wounds), I remind myself not to take writing for granted…not to be fair-weathered penned.
I remind myself that my instincts are good, things happen the way they do for any number of reasons, and speaking one’s truth has value beyond helping oneself…
So, after having an (emotionally) brutal long-weekend, last week,
followed by a week that, thankfully, got better and better—
and, yesterday—having a strong sense that I’m starting to look like my old self again—
(a sure sign that I’m willing to put myself out there without fear of becoming a target)
today, I came across something that could have set me back…but, gratefully, I worked through it. 🙂
Here’s what that looked like:
Thoughts, gather round, you’ve got something to share with me…
As each of you occur, you converge in an understanding that gives me increased peace of mind—especially in times such as these when I’m tempted to give someone a piece of my mind.
And, what manner of thought prevents retaliation from steering me from my path, you might wonder?
The same spontaneous knowing that prompted me to quit drinking so long ago…
As author, Elizabeth Gilbert’s friend put it,
the realization that I was “…deteriorating faster than I could lower my standards”.
Oh, how I love that quote!
I discovered it this week, and find it’s funny because it’s true;
and, it’s a true blessing…
for, it is evidence that—having moved through utterly devastating pains—humor is the overriding thing that remains…that, and my determination to continue to fight the good fight.
So, in the here and now, I’m so grateful that this quote is ringing in my heart-centered ears; for, I’ve just seen a stark reminder of how duplicitous a certain someone is.
But, instead of a Socratic series of “Why’s” (“Why would/how could so and so say that…act that way…not feel horrible…not worry about being found out..? etc.)—a self-compassionate response is to take comfort in Wise…
As such, questions become one—
“Truly, would you rather hear flattering truths spoken by someone who lies…and uses you?
Or, would you rather walk alone until—able to recognize that you have others who are true–you can see the forest in all its wood-be glory?”
Obviously, I’ve opted for the latter.
And, it’s not like I am side-stepping any of the trip…
Having had that frenemie in my life for over a decade, this leg of the journey has been long in the making.
But, having grown, I get that sweeping issues under the carpet leaves an unsightly bulge unseen only if one allows desperate distractions to have their way…
I understand that you have to, “go there”, before you can get there…
Which is why I’m keepin’ it real—acknowledging the traces of anger, while using self-talk to my advantage…
Why waste my breath on my vo-crab-ulary, when I can use my words to encourage and heal?
So, on days like today, when ones contentment is suddenly challenged by blips on the radar, I offer myself–and, any who need it–this encouragement…
No pressure…instead of wishing each other a good morning, or good afternoon, or good day, or good evening…let’s wish each other a good moment…for, others will likely follow 🙂
Take care, my friends…it’s worth it…and, we most certainly are!
And, as ever…
Thank you for being my sounding board…generous of spirit, you are making such a valued difference 🙂
God bless you and your loves.
P.S. The Red Green Show (1991-2006) “is a Canadian show much like ‘Home Improvement’ ” (a show that starred Tim Allen)…I find Red and the gang to be endearing and amusing :); Elizabeth Gilbert is the author of the book, “Eat, Pray, Love”—I haven’t read it, but thoroughly enjoyed her TED Talk where she speaks to how she came to terms with the fact that she doesn’t expect to have that particular level of literary success again. That’s where she shared her friend’s quote (“…was deteriorating faster than I could lower the bar“).