(Dec. 30/16) Another “Thank You….”

Hi, Wonderfuls…Having had a series of conversations (comments) with one of my favourite people in the blogosphere

https://mariewilliams53.wordpress.com/

I am moved to say a heartfelt thank you to those of you who take the time it takes to read…re-read…and digest my usual brand of postings.

And, I am really flattered that there are those who see the intelligence, creativity,  and depth inherent in my convoluted  ramblings…

And, for those who get “lost” while reading–and chalk it up to a lack of comprehension/intelligence–I want to share this…

I, too, get lost 🙂  It takes an average of 10 hours to write each one…

The way it works is, individual wordplay snippets come to me out of the blue (most often first thing in the morning before my brain becomes alert and on the lookout for something to overthink about)…so, I quickly record them and close the door to that part of my mind (or else, flooded with ideas, I’d stay in bed and be late for work 🙂 ).

The time consuming part comes when I make a point of writing a post (on the weekends)…

I typically have  or 3 or 4 (single-thought) puns in the wings by the time Context finds its way to me; and context comes from things I am working through (how far I’ve come depends on what it is I am recognizing, and when I decide it is time to use it for writing inspiration).

Then, comes the loads of thinking needed to string my thoughts together….

The wordplay easily comes to mind (that’s God sending gifts my way)….

My responsibility is to sort out what it is I am coming to terms with….and, given that I am highly introspective, I look at things from several angles before I am able to capture everything, and wrestle it into submission.

I say “wrestle into submission” because it feels like a mental tug of war….competing thoughts vie for my attention…some by virtue of their attempts to scamper away and hide…and others try to muscle their way into my writing when they have no business being there…not yet anyway.

And here comes the vulnerable disclosure…

Like one of my favourite songs, “Tears Of A Clown” (Smokey Robinson and The Miracles), a good deal of my humor stems from soooooo many tears I’ve shed…wordplay makes it easier for me to sit with that which has caused me such pain.

The wonderful thing is, in seeking a way to heal from the heartbreak of being so misunderstood for (almost) forever–I have come to find that my depth of sensitivity (evident from a very early age) has a name…I am an empath.  I feel things so deeply, and it makes me highly empathetic and compassionate…

and vulnerable to being really hard on myself…susceptible to negative messages from those who (for whatever reason) are threatened by an optimistic, heart-on-my-sleeve “openness” and capacity for appreciation.

Having said that, I have been so blessed to have people come into my life, at all the right times, who saw what I couldn’t see yet…they told me how awesome and special they knew me to be.

And, now that I have a context for why I think and feel the way I do, I am so grateful to be connecting with people–from all walks of life–who share my kind of heart and worldview….all while we move through the world and contribute good in our own unique ways.

I have much so more to learn…”Miles to go before I sleep…” (as the poet, Robert Frost, so beautifully put it)….

But, I will not stop…for–when seeking healthy ways to heal–inherent in the struggle that rubs one the wrong way  is a converse effect …

A polishing once reserved for jewels and magic genie lamps makes, what’s best in me, shine like a star…and, never forget…

the same is true of you 🙂

As always, thank you for being here…God bless you and your loves 🙂

P.S. A spontaneous offering straight from the heart, this took about 30 minutes (much less need for editing and being sure that I am saying what I mean to say).

 

 

43 thoughts on “(Dec. 30/16) Another “Thank You….””

  3. Thank you for giving us such an intimate insight into your writing process. I, too “struggle” with empathy, and I say struggle because at times….being connected is a difficult existence. It’s not surprising to see why so many choose to remain disconnected nowadays….

    I might have to “take” some of your techniques for my own writer’ toolkit! Having those stray thoughts and ideas come to mind without capturing them makes them so ephemeral. It must be an amazing experience when they all come together for a post.

    Love and light.

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    1. Thank you for validating my risk….I shared because I really want others to know how much I appreciate them and what they bring to my life and growth process….it means so much to know that people want to hear what I have to say…the deep stuff, I mean….the vast majority of people love my kind, supportive, complimentary thoughts, but not everyone can handle my depth and vulnerability….I tried to hide that, even from myself, for many, many….many years….I’ve always tried to connect…the pain came from finding it was, too often, a one way–thus superficial–meeting of the minds. And, once I recognized that, I became complicit….I became a people pleaser….and, that came with an added layer of pain and loneliness–even as people thought I was the most outgoing, adored person…
      Love and light to you, too, my friend 🙂

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      1. Hrm…I will have to fix this. I had temporarily took down the site so I didn’t have duplicates with my dotcom. I’ll sort this out. Thank you for bringing this to my attention!

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  4. Truly, I am truly speechless. But I must try to say something after your amazing compliment to me. Thank you so much. It is not by chance we met and shared. Something you said about being ’empathic and compassionate’ appears on my blog too, and my tag like is ‘dispensing compassion through poetry’.
    I believe greater forces are at work here, connecting and sending healing through this medium. We are all messengers (angels if you like) with a common goal: spreading and sharing hope in our own unique way.
    Bless you for this post which brought tears to my eyes. Thank you so much for caring.

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      6. Funny….another connection in the unlikeliest of places…my last “regular” post mentioned Venus…not in context of astrology but still…everything is so interconnected once we open ourselves up to it 🙂

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  6. I think so many of us are blessed to have found you. I imagine everyone that has connected to you through your blog is better off especially since your comments and words are so uplifting. I joked way back that I was going to print some of your comments up on my own affirmations wall… But seriously I think you have a gift for making people feel happy…. and loved. What a wonderful talent… you possess.

    I am one of the people that have to read several times your posts before I can earnestly state I understood them… but I love the puns and I love the underlying messages that are being presented.

    I also now am comforted that you take some time to write these posts. I had imagined you sitting and typing up things as they came to your mind… didn’t seem fair if your words came so easily. I appreciate your posts more knowing that you have made such a significant effort. Hope to read more in 2017… may god bless you and your family in the coming new year…

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    1. If she’s not beside you, you better call your wife into the room because I am about to give you a huge virtual hugs and embarrass you with my tearful gratitude (not only do I not want her to take this the wrong way, but, she will need to know the reason why you are just a bit mortified by my open display of adoration and emotion…). But, seriously….I remember you saying “I must be a Patrick…” way back when we first “met”, You were referencing a Sponge Bob Square Pants” quote….and, I felt quite mortified to think I had let my “crazy” leak out a bit too freely…but you were so kind that I swallowed my mortification and decided to make my posts more “reader friendly” for the majority of people who don’t as easily think in my back to front kind of way….and, in doing so, it changed everything and made me a better writer/connector….and, made me enjoy my writings even more….so, I owe you a debt I can never hope to repay…but, I will try, my friend… 🙂

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    2. P.S. When I imagined that people had the very thought you spoke of (that of me leisurely putting my feet up and cranking out a clever post), I knew I had to set the record straight…I am driven to connect and want nothing to get in the way of us realizing that we all have so much in common when it comes to embracing life…and, ourselves…secondly, Happy New Year to you and your precious family….and thank you for your blessings and positive regards 🙂

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  7. I am having trouble coming up with a compliment worthy enough for you lol. I’m so glad to have met you here truly. It’s always a fun interacting with you. Just knowing someone as cool as you will read this makes me smile. ^^

    PS- You have an amazing wordplay 🙂

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  8. I know the time and effort needed to create these blog posts. I also understand how smart you are for using your creativity to POSITIVELY release a multitude of emotions from deep within yourself. I never view your writings as “ramblings.” 10 + hours of creation is the antithesis of ramblings! Your thought process and creativity far exceeds my abilities. This is one reason I enjoy reading your works. It forces my mind out of its comfort zone and into a realm REQUIRING new perspectives including ABSTRACT thinking. This is a GIFT you provide to me without asking for anything in return. How SELFLESS an act this is!

    Thank you for all your effort and your willingness to share a personal part of you. It takes a special person to offer ALL that you do.

    Wishing you a very healthy and Happy New Year!!

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    1. Thank you so much for the blessing of appreciation and validation….and, speaking of giving without expecting anything in return, I think of you as I hit new milestones in my quest to make my health (mental and physical) a priority. I am up to 6 glasses of water per day and have substituted regular tea for a variety of exotic herbal teas. I haven’t had any fast food in two weeks and rarely have the craving….next, my goal is to add a veggie/fruit smoothie to my morning routine (home-made). A number of my colleagues include a variety of healthy foods in their diets, so I don’t have to look far for advice and recipes 🙂 As for the gym challenge, that is tied to attendance, not to weight or inches lost…the focus is on stress-reduction and boosting mental acuity 🙂 You really motivated me to make a change and reclaim my agility, rhythm, and joy of movement. Lord knows what i will accomplish when I have more energy to do so….Sending you adoration, warm wishes, and continued success in all facets of your life. Thank you sooooo much for your comment and thank you for being you and doing what you do 🙂 Happy New Year to you and yours 🙂

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      1. Glad to see you continuing down a path of improving healthy habits that WILL lead to greater personal CONTROL! It’s not about speed or giant steps; it’s about sustaining an improved ATITUDE that leads to perpetual POSITIVE ACTIONS.
        Keep up the good work. Believe it or not, your improved health puts a smile on MY FACE! 🙂

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  9. Two fold response….the post…as always, is rich in kindness and positivity. I never cease to smile that whatever you are going through, your posts stay true to Truly. I am most impressed by your disposition….and now a share based upon your response above.

    Last year, just after Easter….I too change dietary tack. Upped the water in preference to caffeine. Switched to decaffeianted coffee and herbal tea, mostly camomile…exercise increased with walking and a spinning bike. Alas I fell by the wayside toward years end. However, seeing your response above made me think. All is not lost, caffeine is a treat if out at a Costa, the rest can be reborn and next Monday is when my ambitions begin again. You have rekindled that…unwitting it may be, but nevertheless you have.

    Many thank and good wishes my friend

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    1. I just love the ways that our connections converge and result in a collective blessing that sees each of us coming into our own…just as fighters get into fighting shape…I am getting in writing shape…something tells me that my horizons are going to expand, and I need to be ready 🙂 And, if I have the faith to prepare for the inevitable, you my friend better make a concerted effort, for things are destined to get mind-blowingly amazing for you very soon 🙂

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      1. That’s because we can both see a turn of phrase or meaning and flow it in new directions…or is that we ramble well 🤔
        Ah yes, ready…that was my prep talk last January….get platform building. This January is about revising strategy there. I wish I had your faith in me living inside! I am really fluxing with anxiety of late. I know I have to publish soon or it may never happen!

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